Finished college / by ellie berry

I've finished college. While an easy sentence to write, I'm finding the content of it hard to connect to.

Finished college. 

People ask what my plans are for the summer, the rest of the year, "the real world". My answer is usually some variation of a nervous joking laugh, talking about how my focus was primarily on finishing my graduation project so long term hasn't been in my field of vision, finishing with general buzz words around travel. 

And travel sounds amazing. I would love to run away. But what happens to the books and prints I've collected, the boy I've been with for two years? And how does a person with €300 to their name run away, exactly? 

I have no resolution to these questions at the moment. Maybe I'll start waiting for a sign. I'm sure that's a realistic way to continue living my life for now ...